No longer pretending to be a Loki

Whatever you think disqualifies you ability wise or deservingness wise is an illusion.
Whoever you think you are is not all that you can access.
You have a consciousness that can access whatever you focus upon.

If I believed I was who I think I am
I would not be able to grow
I would not be able to receive wisdom in the way I have been recently been given understanding
I would not be able to breathe in better experiences and peace and love

If I made assumptions about who I am
I would be who I was
And a lot of who we might be
Is afraid of persecution from the question
“Who do you think you are”

And when the answer to the question isn’t there,
Because I am comfortably sitting in Silence
The answer might be,
“A being”
Or
“The being”

And inside that
Inside that Silence,
inside that answer,
I am referring to being all of this great emptiness inside me, this silence that when I rest within,
my mind feels a sense of calm,
it feels relief, as though a cool water has come over overstimulated nerves.

The emptiness feels like pure bliss
And the possibility in it makes me feel full of bubbling potential which feels like a fullness of infinity inside my chest.

When I feel this, there is nothing else I want, in fact there is no wanting in me.
My breath is slow.
The anxiety is not here.
If I focus on actualizing the emptiness,
that which is a region of my soul,
that emptiness which is often under many shadows and false feelings,
If I bring that emptiness to form,

Aligned with my higher power,
I could bring that emptiness into form, from glistening shimmering into radiance, holy silence into loud sunlight.

I see now that my higher power created me not to be like the darkness but to be like the sun, that was its vision, that was the true person it created.

Then to finally see the truth,
That to be myself means no longer pretending to be a Loki,
That to be my real authentic self is to be like the sun, to be a champion of the earth.

All else is false identity, all else is idol worship, the worth ship of lesser.
To be less than being designed to be is to resist your natural state of being.

The only possible reason to operate at less than designed is fear of pain and negative repercussion.

Then you remember certain truths and you see them as truth,

That what you are seeking is actively seeking you
That higher ends up winning the race against lower
That better gets better
That the evidence exists that you will receive it by the fact that you are seeking it
That to seek positive, good things for yourself, is evidence that you are a fundamentally good being that is always seeking goodness, even at cost to your self.

All wicked people are seeking power because they want goodness

Perhaps they want goodness because part of them wants to be themselves